I was sitting in Fast and Testimony Meeting last Sunday in my Singles Ward thinking about big of a blessing the Gospel really is. I am starting to get really nervous about getting on an airplane on Monday Morning. All these negative things are going through my head. What if I fail? What if it is NOTHING like I am expecting? What if the daughter is playing her mom up and she's nothing like she has been telling me? What if New York really is too far away from my family? And many, many more thoughts.
And than I take a second to quietly thing. I have prayed endlessly about this move, I have spoken to many, many different people about it, consulted my Bishop even. I feel peace about it. All change (for me) brings a nervous stomach and sometimes shaky hands. I just need to remember that it I was not meant to be there, I would not have felt the peace that I have while praying.
Anyway, while sitting in Fast and Testimony meeting, I was thinking that I have absolutely nothing out there, and nobody; and that makes me excited and scares me both at the same time. And than I stopped myself from thinking like that and really really really thought about it. I realized no matter where I go in the world, I will always have a connection to someone. There is such an amazing connection within the church that when I get to long island, I will most certainly not be alone, and that is such an amazing feeling when you are moving across the country by yourself. I am grateful that the gospel is never changing, and that when I get to my ward next week on Sunday, I'll have the same lessons that I would be getting here. I think that's awesome.
Things are still set for me to leave Monday. :)
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Maybe it sounds crazy, but before I moved to NE, I hadn't even seen Lincoln. Jim picked out our apartment, and I just had to trust him. (Lucky for him, he did a great job!)
About a month before our move to NE I was assigned a visiting teaching companion who did NOT go to Relief Society because she didn't feel comfortable there (she was married, but still wanted to be in YW). I had nightmares about calling her to have her go VT with me.
She ended up agreeing to go when I called, and so I told her I would give the lesson. I kid you not, the lesson was on the importance of attending R.S.!!! I remember wondering what I could say to help my companion, but I remember saying that I knew nobody in NE, and that I was scared to death that nobody would like me. I said that I knew I would find friends in RS because I had before in other wards.
You're super brave to make this change, but you'll have a new ward family. Good luck!
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