Goals and resolutions

After reading my past young womens leader's blog and friend, her post on resolutions for 2010 made me realize that I have yet to set any resolutions. I was writing my brother an Email a while back and I was talking about how much I have changed since he has left, and how I am proud of some of the changes that I have made. Just as he will be different when he comes back, so will I. This also got me to thinking about what has changed for me these past few years. In Relief Society this past Sunday the missionaries came in and something that they said really hit me. They read out of a talk, "Look to the future, and dont look back and remenasce on the past" or something like that. It made me think, what do I want to happen in 2010? What do I want to change about myself? About my relationship with others? What have I done in 2009 to make me a better person? To make my relationship with others better? So, I have been thinking, here is a review of my year 2009.

2009 in review
A lot of change happened to me in 2009. In May I graduated from High School (still not sure how THAT happened...just kidding) In August I was thrown way out of my comfort zone and moved 3 hours away from home to where I only knew one person. Luckily she was on the floor below me in the same dorm building, but we ended up rooming for all but 3 weeks of the semester. I matured a lot by moving away from home, people treat me like an adult, like I can make my own decesions and like I have grown up. Amazing how moving away from home makes that work. The doctors figured out why I kept getting so sick (gluten allergy) we were able to fix (eating no gluten...tougher then it sounds) and now my biggest health problem is the ovarian cysts (PCOS) that keep getting worse and worse. I have struggled a lot with this problem, but am trying my best to deal with it. I actually kept my 2009 resolution that I set. It was to stop saying the word retarded, as it became a lot more personal when my friend and someone who I look up to alot had a daughter diagnosed with Down Syndrome.My mom got remarried November 28th. Two girls' moved into my house in July right before I left for school. I went on a very spiritual and very moving trip to Nauvoo with my cousin Pama in July. We had experiences there that changed both our lives, and changed a few of both our ways. Pama is my best friend, and I was very glad to go with her I can't imagine having those experiences that I did with anyone other than Pama. I took about $100 of my Christmas money and helped a family that could not afford to have Christmas and gave them a Christmas. It was an awsome feeling to help someone who couldn't do something for themself. I started volunteering at an emergency shelter for domestic abuse/sexual assault in August; it has truly been a humbling experience. Although I had to do 30 hour of volunteer work for my counseling class, I have done well over 40, I think I am on the verge of 50. I truly enjoy being there with the women. They are such an inspiration for me and have gotten me through some very personal things these past few months.

2010
My goal is to get more healthy. To become competely gluten free (like I should be now- but it is really harder then it sounds) Not neccessarily skinny (although that would be FABULOUS) I would like to maintain a healthy weight. This year I also want to be more of a missionary. My brother is a full-time missionary. 24 hours a day, 7 days a week is consumed by serving our Lord. I figure I can share the gospel more..be a better example of what a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints truly are. I also want to be a better daughter. My mom and I haven't gotten along very well, but I feel like these past few months have helped our relationship. Or me moving out and only seeing her on the weekends- that could be it too :) I also want to lean more on our loving Heavenly Father. I am HORRIBLE at reading my scriptures and praying- but that is something that I will do every day..faithfully. Along with writing in my journal, I used to be really good at it- but not so much since I have gotten into college. It really helped me in the past, so I really need to get back into it. Another goal of mine is to focus on the Savior and not my week when I take the sacrament.

These are just a few of the things that I have done in 2009 and things that I want to do in 2010.